Since Tap and I made the decision to move from Ohio back to Illinois, I would be lying if I didn’t say I’ve gotten cold feet a few times.
In many ways it feels like we are moving backwards instead of forwards- Moving back into my parent’s home, making less money in a less passionate field of work (for the time-being), and Tap is still seeking employment.
But my friends reminded us that we aren’t “moving backwards,” we are simply re-adjusting our path. Making a few turns forward, rather than turning around and retreating all-together.
They encouraged me, and reminded me that all of this was to straighten our path back out so that we could seek the true goal- to be in alignment with God’s will and make an impact for His Kingdom.
Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
Over the last couple of years, our goal had changed. Our goal was to obtain comfort.
We had plans to pay off our school debt- a worthy goal -but that goal was driven by a motivation to travel more, upgrade our possessions, and buy more stuff…
I wanted to see Italy, Greece, and Ireland. We talked about our priorities being a new car, then a new computer, then a new whatever. Once debt was out of the way, we would have a new flow of income that would sustain our hobbies and desires.
Again, these are ok things and things we still want, but our focus had gotten off-track. Our goal was comfort instead of impact.
We have chosen to go back to school so that we can have a bigger impact.
In times of cold-feet, I hear whispers that say: “You can’t teach.” “You’ll get another degree that you’ll never use.” “You are being foolish, wasting so much money and time… again.”
I believe this is the fear talking… It would be a lot more comfortable to NOT go back to school, to NOT have to pay for an education, to NOT work or study or try. But staying comfortable usually results in less impact.
As uncomfortable as it is, I want to live a life of impact.
And for me, I think that means moving to Illinois, studying hard, and getting another degree. A degree that will help me pour into the college students (the age many lose faith), to equip them with God’s word and wisdom, and to send them forth into the world- multiplying impact through a classroom.
This has been stirring in our hearts and minds…. a seed of an idea planted in us. That we’ve decided to water with a lot of prayer and a little action. Please pray with us as we weigh our options and make these big decisions.
How do you influence the world around you? What impact are you making on the people in your life? How can you multiply and deepen that impact?