What If I Fall?

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I’ve fallen before… many times, I have scars to prove it. And as a child I don’t think I ever feared the falling. Falling from my first steps, falling from the pine tree at my sister’s as I learned to climb it, falling from my bike, my Rollerblade races, from sitting on my self-made tower of waffle blocks….

I’m sure that my parents didn’t even try to keep count of my scraped knees, the band-aids, or tears.

To this day I can still ride a bike, Rollerblade… and I’ve added long boarding, skiing, and so much more to my list.  And with time the falling grew less.

However, what I never meant to add to my list was the actual fear of falling.

Last ski trip, I was scared for the first time of riding the ski lift. I pulled the safety bar down as we climbed up into the mountain.  A thing I never did in the past, no matter how high we would climb.

When did that fear slip in?

And not only has it found me, but it’s taken over corners of my life.

Now I’m scared of what people think, fear of failing, fear of embarrassment, fear of disappointment… To the point that sometimes fear paralyzes me. It feeds me the lie- better not to try then to try and fail (in front of everyone).

Oh, but darling… What if you fly?

You could not only obtain your dream, but God could take you further than you allowed yourself to first dream.  Maybe this dream will whisk you away into a life you truly love- wrapped up in excitement, purpose, meaning. Maybe this dream is a step into a further calling.

Perhaps you’ll be as loved as those you love and admire- Beth Moore and Jen Hatmaker… Maybe you will do what you’ve always wanted to do- Write a book, or have a beloved tribe of friends.

Be surrounded by those you need, be where you need to be, doing what you were made to do.

And the only one holding you back is you.

Please don’t let fear hold you back from the life you’ll love and even more importantly- the life God has asked you to live, that He has equipped you for, the life that will breathe life into others.

Fly and Live.  Fly and Love.  Fly and Inspire.

When did fear join your journey? Why do you think you’ve given fear so much power in your life? What do you want to fly into?

Skinny has it’s Woes : There is Hope for Body Image Issues

I weigh myself just about every morning, then I walk over to a full length mirror and assess myself based off the new information I’ve received. Some days I am happy with how I look, and other days… Even if the scale is the same, my eyes add on the pounds.   Mental tallies are made for what I ate, if I did or didn’t work out, and how these same 130 pounds seem to distribute themselves differently each morning.

Then I go about my day and everyone has an opinion on my looks, and they are not ashamed to say it! “Oh, but you have nothing to worry about.” “I wish I was skinny like you.” “It’s not fair, that’s because you’re skinny.” “I love your outfit, but I could never pull it off.” “You need to eat more!” So on, and so forth. These comments aren’t helpful, they just add on guilt to the problem. Skinny people are not free from body-image issues. Everyone is susceptible to Satan’s tricks.

Skinny people may still worry that they are not skinny enough, or that they are too skinny! We do not want to chastise them for their body, which they may even work hard for! Do not add pain to their worries, by piling on guilt and self-hate.

We all need to stop comparing ourselves; Instead live in love, acceptance, and encouragement. Embrace how God has carved you! The One who chose the beauty of the mountains, who dug the canyons, who painted the moving waters, and filled the earth with birds of every color, trust His ability to create something –someone­- SO Beautiful!

Then share the true vision of beauty with those around you.

But now thus says the Lord,
he who created you, O Jacob,
    he who formed you, O Israel:
Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
    I have called you by name, you are mine.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
    and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;
when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
    and the flame shall not consume you.
For I am the Lord your God,
    the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
I give Egypt as your ransom,
    Cush and Seba in exchange for you.
Because you are precious in my eyes,
    and honored, and I love you,
I give men in return for you,
    peoples in exchange for your life.
Fear not, for I am with you;
    I will bring your offspring from the east,
    and from the west I will gather you.
 will say to the north, Give up,
    and to the south, Do not withhold;
bring my sons from afar
    and my daughters from the end of the earth,
everyone who is called by my name,
    whom I created for my glory,
    whom I formed and made.”

Isaiah 43:1-7

Emphasis added

Being Real – The Selfie Challenge

I have noted a new trend in marketing, that of being “real” and being “you.”  Dove has been exposing the lies of photoshop and the one-size-fits-no-one model for a while now.  More recently, American Eagle’s Aerie has jumped onto this bandwagon.  Although they have always been “The Girl Next Door,” they have taken this to the next step.  Instead of hiring models, like using the hit reality show “America’s Next Top Model” winner, they use regular girls in their ads.  Their website reads “Get Real. Think Real. No Supermodels. No Retouching. The REAL YOU is SEXY.”  I cannot vouch for the authenticity of their marketing, but I could tell that models wore birthmarks, had folds when they bent, moles, ribs, and even bellies!  How incredibly refreshing! Although, most of these “regular” girls still appear to be a size 2 jean, it is the beginning of something beautiful.

I just discovered the following video from a new campaign that Dove is supporting.  In this video it describes young girls’ self-concept, struggling with comparison, and a constant awareness of their “faults.”  It highlights how young girls take selfies in order to control their image.  They hide their big hair by wearing it back, they hide their double chin by taking pictures only in a certain light or at a certain angle, etc.  Instead of hiding these features, they are challenged to take the exact “selfie” that they intentionally avoid.  Let the hair down, show off your big smile, don’t wear makeup!

I thought this video was challenging, not just to young girls, but people everywhere.  Moms, Ladies, Girls, Dads, Men, Boys we all have something we are insecure about.  It may not be a body issue, but we all have something we desperately try to hide from the mocking world we live in.  Maybe Dove is right, maybe it is time to seize the social media market and put ourselves out there and redefine beauty.  But the BIGGEST goal, is to first rage that battle in ourselves.  We need to see our own beauty, the beauty God gave us.  We should not belittle His marvelous and perfect works of art.  We should not sell ourselves short, trading in our happiness for the world’s lies, our confidence for comparison.  Let us see the world the way God sees it.  With beauty, love, worth, purpose, and design.

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Question : What do you always hide in your pictures?

Challenge : Post a selfie that magnifies your uniqueness, that showcases what you don’t see in yourself.

Cubicle Life Pt 2 : Cubicle Decor

When I first learned that I would be working in a cubicle, I was a little hesitant.  High grey walls, eerie quiet, the seldom visitor- but when I went to work I was happy to find that our cubicles are much more like little families.  Every department is set apart with a couple tall walls, and half walls in between each individual in the department.  There is a constant opening for questions, chit-chat, and the occasional dropping of eaves.  The space is open, rather than claustrophobic, and you can see everyone’s heads by just looking up.  It is a much more social environment than offices, and certainly my perception of cubicles- in this way, I have been blessed!

One drawback of cubicles that still remained, though, was it’s drab appearance.  Various shades of grey, and a constant clutter of tacky thumb tacks, post-it notes, and a dozen “must have” documents stuck to the walls.  After a few weeks, I decided to de-clutter my workaholic organized mess, and flare up my cookie cutter box.

Here is a small sample of what I was working with… I forgot to take several “Before” shots, but I assure you it came standard with several documents tacked all over the walls.

Before Cubicle

After doing a little shopping and pre-setup, my husband came in and helped me put up my decorations.

Cubicle After 1Cubicle After 2Cubicle After 4

This remodel was inexpensive, home-y, and inspiring!  I printed off google images and pinterest quotes free at home, cut them out and simply mounted them on cardstock.  Then I bought a little bit of ribbon and fabric.  I used a wide ribbon as a border on my high wall, held up by tacks on each end.  Then I found that the grey cork-ish boards came off the walls, so I wrapped fabric around them, tapped it on the back side (not to do any permanent damage) and then created a french board with ribbon and tacks.  I then took photo favorites and scattered them throughout the design.  Overall, the remodel cost $15 (fabric, ribbon, cardstock, and photos).

If you want to create a wallpaper feel to your cubicle, you could also take a fabric of your choice and measure it to the size of the wall you are covering.  Pre-hem and sew the edges to give it a clean-cut look and tack it down.

I hope you can make a home out of your office! After all, we do spend 40 hours a week there!